Category: “Unspoken Struggles’ series

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🎶 Growing Older, But Never Outgrowing His Love 🎶

Five years ago, I heard a song that changed me. It wasn’t just another melody—it was a voice straight to my heart. Ray Boltz’s “Always Be a Child” hit me deep, and to this day, every time I hear it, something inside me melts.

You see, life makes you feel like you have to grow up, toughen up, figure it out. But then Jesus whispers, “You’ll always be a child in My eyes.” And suddenly, the weight lifts.

I had a conversation with Him about it. Maybe it’s a conversation you’ve needed too:

A Conversation With Jesus: I’ll Always Be Your Child

Me: Jesus… can I talk to You for a moment?

Jesus: Always, My child. What’s on your heart?

Me: It’s funny, Lord. I’ve grown, changed, struggled… But every time I hear that song, it’s like I’m back where I started—just a child in Your arms.

I close my eyes, and suddenly, I’m not this “grown-up” trying to figure life out. I’m just… Yours.

Jesus: Because that’s exactly who you are.

Me: But Lord, I don’t always feel like Your child. Sometimes, I feel like I should have figured things out by now. That I should be stronger, braver, more put together. But then I hear the words—“When you need some love, My arms are open wide…”

And I realize how much I need that love.

Jesus: Victor,

I have loved you with an everlasting love

(Jeremiah 31:3)

You don’t outgrow My love. You don’t graduate from being My child. Even when you think you’ve wandered too far, even when your faith feels weak—My arms are still open.

Me: But what about the times I push You away? The moments I get so caught up in life that I forget You?

Jesus: Even then.

📖 “If we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot deny Himself.”

— 2 Timothy 2:13

Me: So… even as I’m growing older, You’ll always see me as Your child?

Jesus: Always. You may change, but My love doesn’t. You’ll always be safe in My hands. And no matter how far you go, I’ll always be here, whispering, Come home.

Me: I’ll always be a child in Your eyes…

Jesus: And I’ll always be Your Father.

🎵 “Always Be a Child” – Ray Boltz

… I was there when you drew the breath of life

And I could hear your voice

The first time that you cried

And though you couldn’t see me

I was very near

And there’s something now

That I want you to hear…

You will always be a child in my eyes

And when you need some love

My arms are open wide

And even when you’re growing old

I hope you realize

You will always be a child in my eyes…

And I was there the first time that you prayed

And I heard all the promises you made

And when you fell before me

Crying father I have sinned

I picked you up

And held you close again…

And you will always be a child in my eyes

And when you need some love

My arms are open wide

And even when you’re growing old

I hope you realize

You will always be a child in my eyes…

You will always be a child in my eyes

And when you need some love

My arms are open wide

And even when you’re growing old

I hope you realize

You will always be a child in my eyes…

You will always be a child in my eyes

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STOP STRUGGLING—JUST SHINE! 🌞🌟🌙✨⭐💥🌞

We’ve complicated Christianity. Somewhere along the way, we turned following Jesus into a performance—a constant, exhausting effort to “be better,” “do more,” and “shine brighter.” But what if we got it all wrong?

What if shining for Christ was never about trying harder but simply turning toward Him?

1️⃣ The Moon Doesn’t Try to Shine—It Just Reflects

Ever noticed how the moon never stresses about shining? It doesn’t wake up (if it ever sleeps) and say, “Oh no! What if I’m not glowing enough tonight?” It simply faces the sun, and boom—light.

Eric Gilmour puts it this way:

🗣️ “When Christianity changes from behaving to beholding, struggling is replaced with snuggling and wrestling with nestling.”

Eric Gilmour (Sonship int’l)

Christianity isn’t about behavior modification—it’s about intimacy with Jesus. The more we behold Him, the more we reflect Him. Just like the moon, our job isn’t to generate light but to stay positioned where His light can hit us.

📖 “We all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory.”

— 2 Corinthians 3:18

Transformation happens not by striving, but by staring.

2️⃣ The One Thing That Can Block Your Light

But here’s the problem—sometimes, the moon doesn’t shine. Not because the sun stopped shining, but because something got in the way.

What happens during a lunar eclipse? The earth comes between the moon and the sun. The world blocks the light.

Same with us.

When the world gets between us and Jesus, our light fades. Not because His power has diminished, but because we’ve let something else steal our focus.

🔹 Sin? It dims the light.
🔹 Fear of people’s opinions? That’s an eclipse.
🔹 Busyness and distractions? They cast a shadow.
🔹 Self-effort instead of surrender? That’s wrestling instead of nestling.

Jesus warned about this:

📖 “No one lights a lamp and puts it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house.”

— Matthew 5:15

Could it be that we are the ones covering our own light?

3️⃣ Stop Trying—Start Turning

Here’s where it gets real—you can’t make yourself shine. You can try harder or work more, but if you’re facing the wrong direction, no amount of effort will produce light.

Eric Gilmour again:

🗣️ “The secret to shining is not more effort—it’s more exposure to Him.”

🔥 Want to shine? Face the Son.
🔥 Want to radiate Christ? Stay in His presence.
🔥 Want effortless transformation? Shift from struggling to snuggling.

It’s not about trying to be holy—it’s about getting so close to Jesus that holiness becomes your natural glow.

4️⃣ The Question You Need to Ask

So here’s the real question:

Are you trying to shine, or are you positioned to shine?

The moon doesn’t work hard to be bright—it simply stays in the right place. The same goes for us. If we’re not shining, we don’t need more effort—we need more exposure to Jesus.

🔥 Final Thought: Are You Facing the Son?

Look at your life. Has something eclipsed your light? Are you striving instead of soaking in His presence?

💬 What’s one thing that tries to block your light? How do you stay positioned to reflect Christ? Let’s talk! 👇🔥

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Will God Ever Give Up on Me?

Have you ever felt like you’ve messed up one too many times? Like, maybe you’ve sinned so much that God is just done with you? Maybe you promised you’d never fall into that sin again… but you did. And now, a voice in your head whispers:

"God is tired of you."
"You’ve failed too many times."
"He’s given up on you."

That’s a terrifying thought. What if it’s true? Can you push God to the point where He finally says, 

"Enough! I’m done with you."

Let’s get real about this.

1️⃣ The Fear That God Has Given Up on You

There are a few reasons why people feel like God might have abandoned them:

🔹 Repeated Sin – “I keep failing. How could God still forgive me?”

🔹 Spiritual Dryness – “I don’t feel His presence anymore. Has He left me?”

🔹 Hardened Heart – “I’ve ignored Him for so long. Has He stopped calling me?”

🔹 The Unforgivable Sin – “Jesus spoke of a sin that can’t be forgiven. Have I committed it?”

It’s scary, right? That feeling of distance from God, like you’ve been put on some kind of divine blacklist.

But let’s take a closer look at what the Bible actually says.

2️⃣ Can You Sin So Much That God Gives Up on You?Imagine Peter and Judas.

Both betrayed Jesus. One was restored, the other was lost forever.

🔹 Peter: A Man Who Messed Up… Badly

Peter denied Jesus three times—not just privately, but publicly. This was his best friend, his teacher, his Messiah… and Peter swore he didn’t even know Him.

If there was ever a moment for Jesus to say, “I’m done with you”, this was it.

And yet, after the resurrection, Jesus restores Peter with love:

📖 “Do you love me? Feed my sheep.”

— John 21:17

Jesus didn’t abandon Peter, even after a huge failure.

🔹 Judas: A Man Who Gave Up on God

Now, look at Judas. He also betrayed Jesus, but instead of running to Jesus for mercy, he ran to despair. He gave up.

The difference? Peter turned back to Jesus. Judas walked away.

🚨 God doesn’t give up on people. People give up on God.

3️⃣ The Real Danger: A Hardened Heart

The Bible warns about a hardened heart—a heart that no longer cares about sin, no longer feels conviction, no longer seeks God.

📖 “Today, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts.”

— Hebrews 3:15

A hardened heart isn’t when you feel guilty for sin. It’s when you stop caring altogether.

Do you still feel sorrow over sin? Do you still desire God? Then you haven’t gone too far. A person who is too far gone wouldn’t even be reading this right now.

4️⃣ What About the Unforgivable Sin?

Jesus spoke about one sin that can never be forgiven—blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.

📖 “Truly I tell you, people can be forgiven all their sins… but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will never be forgiven.”

— Mark 3:28-29

What does that mean? Have you committed it?

First, let’s clear up a myth:

🚨 The unforgivable sin is NOT:
  • Saying something angry about God.
  • Having doubts or struggling with faith.
  • Accidentally saying something wrong about the Holy Spirit.
So what is it?
  • It’s a lifetime of rejecting God’s call. It’s when a person continually, stubbornly refuses to turn to Jesus until their heart is so hardened that they no longer can.

If you’re still seeking God, you haven’t committed it. Period.

5️⃣ So, Does God Ever Give Up on Us?

God is incredibly patient.

📖 “The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise… He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”

— 2 Peter 3:9

If you’re still alive, if you still have breath in your lungs, God hasn’t given up on you.Look at the people Jesus forgave:

✅ A thief on the cross—saved in his final moments.

✅ A murderer like Paul—turned into an apostle.

✅ A prostitute like Mary Magdalene—redeemed and loved.

God’s grace isn’t fragile. It doesn’t shatter after your 100th mistake. He is more willing to forgive than we are to ask.

📖 “Where sin increased, grace increased all the more.”

— Romans 5:20

🔥 Final Thought: Will You Turn Back?

The real question isn’t “Will God give up on me?”

The real question is “Will I give up on God?”

God doesn’t shut the door—we do.

So if you’re still wondering, still searching, still feeling that tug in your heart—don’t ignore it. That’s the Holy Spirit drawing you back.

💬 What do you think? Have you ever felt like God was done with you? What pulled you back? Let’s talk! 👇🔥

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When Faith Feels Empty – What Then?

“I need Thee, oh I need Thee, every hour I need Thee…”

Ever sung those words but felt nothing?Ever sat in church, heard a powerful sermon, watched people around you lift their hands in worship… and felt absolutely disconnected?

Ever prayed and wondered if your words were just bouncing off the ceiling?

Ever felt like you’re going through the motions of faith, but it’s just… hollow?You pray, but the words feel empty.

You read the Bible, but it’s just words on a page.

It’s not that you don’t believe. It’s not that you’ve turned away. It’s just that—somewhere along the way—faith started to feel… empty.

And if that’s where you are, you’re not alone.

You show up to church, but your heart’s not in it.

And deep down, you wonder:

"Is something wrong with me?"
"Did I lose my faith?"
"Where is God in all of this?"

If you’ve ever felt that way, you’re not crazy, you’re not alone, and you’re definitely not a “bad Christian.”

Faith isn’t always fireworks and mountaintop moments. Sometimes, it’s a slow, quiet walk through a spiritual desert.

In fact, some of the greatest people of faith have walked through this very struggle.

So… what do you do when faith feels empty?

When the passion is gone? When all you have left is routine?

Let’s talk about it.

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